I thought about titling this entry "I'm going to go take a nap -wake me up in about 6 months" or "Not feelin' the Love, Jelly Bean." Obviously I decided on something a little warmer and fuzzier. I was telling my friend the other day that it is one thing to move to a foreign country with your husband, it's another thing to move to a foreign country and then have your husband gone for months at a time. It's an ENTIRELY different thing when you move to a foreign country, your husband is gone, and you are pregnant and miserably sick. I had a hard time keeping this pregnancy a secret because I have been so sick. I think everyone and their mother has seen me puking in the grass by my apartment or when I am getting out of my car. Even Cliff's OIC has seen me throw up. Yeah... that's not embarrassing... I want to say it's not all bad, but... Ok, well today I had my 10 week appt. and I really do have to say that seeing that little Jelly Bean on the computer screen was pretty cool. I guess it hasn't really seemed real until I got to see the little guy/gal and the heartbeat. I mean, yes, It has been all too real with the way that I have been feeling, but seeing little Jelly Bean INSIDE ME makes it a little better :)
These past couple of months have been some of the most trying that I have experienced in a while but I am trying to remain optimistic and I am really looking forward to seeing Cliff again. I don't want anyone to think that we aren't excited because we are absolutely thrilled! I guess I just needed to rant for a second and it feels good to let all of this out. I just want to say that anyone that has ever experienced ANY degree of this so-called "morning" sickness (more like every minute of the day or night sickness) my heart truly goes out to you.
Mark your calendars for May 21st! That's right!! A May baby in May!!
